Less depressy more progressy | For the homies I put so much into this video and I wasn't even going to upload it. This one is for the homies.
Generally the title of a video starts to make sense about now. I’ll explain. I had been dreading my birthday for the past month. I was extremely depressed. I couldn’t leave my house, hell i couldn’t even leave my bed. I felt as if i hadn’t accomplished enough, done enough, seen enough. I felt like i didn’t push myself hard enough. This past week of my birthday my friends have really showed me how I’ve grown and progressed over the past year. It’s in my friendships and the relationships with those friends. I have by far the most supportive group of friends i could have ever dreamed of. They just accept me for me and they push me to be the best most true version of myself i can be and in that aspect I think I’ve grown more than i thought possible. Ive learned so much about myself, who i am and the dreams im chasing. I’ve started and stopped making this video countless times over the past three months. It has evolved from being a project i wasn’t going to finish into a story about how my friends got me through the past year and helped me grow so much more than i even realized. This video goes out to all of you. Everyone that has been there for me, stopped by to hangout while i was working or helped me with stickers. Everyone of you has helped me break out of this shell and i am so grateful for each and every one of you. I can’t imagine where i would have been without you. I love you guys and i am so appreciative of everything you’ve done and how you’ve helped me. I’ve put my everything into this video and i still haven’t been able to finish it. Chasing perfection has crippled me emotionally and creatively I’ve just felt stuck. What if I’m not good enough to invoke emotion or inspire? You guys have showed me that something doesn’t have to be perfect to be perfect if that makes sense. Ryan Kao said “perfection in my mind is a measure of how well something does what it is intended to do. I create art to express myself but the real goal is to create something that invokes emotion from my audience and if my work does that then it’s as perfect as it needs to be”. I’ve been trying to live by this one day at a time. Each day learning to love myself a little more and be a little less critical of myself and the things i create. With all of that said I’ll see you in the next one. If you like it please give this video a thumbs up and get subscribed. Hit the bell to get notified when i post my next video. You can also follow me on Instagram @ scottyroddis to see behind the scenes and what I’m up to on a daily basis. Love you bye.
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